Finals are approaching, and I am not as prepared as I would like to be.
There are sewing projects, charcoal drawings, design projects, a website construction, and a solution paper to complete.
I don't have the energy for this.
Without someone to help me relax, and restless nights filled with terrifying dreams, and only so much coffee to be consumed, these finals will be difficult.
It's a bit intimidating. I want to do well in these classes, as it is my first term in Apparel Design classes. This means a lot to me. I am finally chasing a dream and following a path to what makes me happy. Falling behind and not putting my best work forward isn't something I can accept.
One positive aspect of the hours that will be spent studying and designing to finish these courses....I won't have time sit and think, and be sad about how alone and empty I feel.
Between work and the final weeks of courses, the holiday season should fly by...and not spending the holidays with family and friends won't hit me until they are in my face or over.
If only I could completely rid my mind of the sadness this holiday season will bring.....
but I am thankful for a busy school schedule and a work schedule that will help me get through it.
The road may seem all uphill, treacherous, and never-ending, but at least the scenery and the hopes of a happy ending are good company.
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